Chemo, Hair, and Surgery Update

Update....  I just finished #9 of 12 Taxol chemo treatments. I still have my hair although it is getting very thin on top.  I just wear hats everyday now because the longest of my hair is curly and still looks good with the hats. Thank goodness I had a ton of hair to begin with.  I still lose a small pile of hair everyday, which has slowed but gone on for five weeks now. It is emotionally draining and stresses me on what to do with it, as I just have to take it day by day. 
I have to say in general that my spirits aren’t what they have been. I am trying very hard to stay upbeat, but it has been a struggle the last couple of weeks. I’m exhausted. I’m emotionally worn out.  There are so many things that I just can’t do. And if you know me, you know that I am struggling with that! I really hate feeling so weak.
But the good news is...I only have three more Taxol chemo treatments and five more Herceptin treatments. We have moved my implant surgery to July so I can get some time to get my body back from the chemo. Let's all pray that by August 1st I can say I am done!  (Well besides the meds I take for five years which are not a big deal!) 

Thank you for all of your continued thoughts and prayers.  I am constantly surrounded by blessings from this journey.  And believe me, I count those blessings everyday. How can I complain when there are so many others whose struggles are worse?
Have a great weekend!


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